I really need to write in this more. So here is to making an effort. Tonight I had an extremely wonderful time playing mahjong. We get together every monday night for mahjongg and I always leave so happy, regardless of how much money I lose. Haha. dont worry its only change. but I tend to lose 1-3 dollars a week playing this silly game, at least since we started using the new 2010 card on April 1st. I used to be better with the 2009 card. It really is all about recognizing patterns, i just need time for this new card to sink in.
Anyways, I realize how extremely sad I am to leave here. As most of you know, I have moved every 3-4 years my entire life, so moving is nothing to me. And for the most part, I have absolutely loved it. I really think this is the first move in which I am really just not ready. for the first time since high school, I feel that I truly have a community where I belong. Dont get me wrong, I was totally ready to leave high school and go to college, but come on, that was for COLLEGE. and after college, I was ready to move on with my life, I didnt really feel at home in Colorado. I had several really close friends, but I didnt have a *community* and now I do.
Here I have someone I can refer to as “my rabbi” and I can call on him when I have both moral and religious dilemmas. I have a Jewish community to which i belong. I have a gynecologist and a dentist and a hair dresser (hair cutter?). I play Mahjong with Jewish girls every Monday and i have Shabbat dinners every Friday. I run with these girls and we go for walks and we have potlucks and watch grey’s anatomy and I just feel so connected to them. And its not just them. I have other friends out here, outside of the Jewish community who I can call on, further extending the reach of my community. For the first time in so long I just really feel that I belong. and I am not ready to leave them.
Dont get me wrong, I am extremely blessed to have a wonderful husband-to-be and an amazing family and am extremely excited to move to Chicago. I know there are even more jews there, particularly young jews, and that the opportunities there far exceed those here (pharmaceuticals, hospitals, medical schools etc). and it will be nice to be close to my extended family. to really spend some quality time with my cousins and get to know my aunts and uncles and the rest of my family. I am going to love being an hour from Kid (spencer) and i have two high school friends within a few hours of chicago that I can reconnect with (one I never lost touch with, in fact she may be at my wedding) but for the first time, I am sad to leave this current life of mine behind.
On that note. I am extremely excited about my bridal shower on saturday. The invitations my friends made are ADORABLE. and yes, I will post a picture of them, but technically I havent gotten one yet. lol. My dear friend Rachel keeps forgetting to give me one, and I keep forgetting to ask when I see her. but its okay, I got to see one that was sent to another friend. and they are soo cute. they have all put in so much into this. I know nothing about it and yet I know its gonna be girly and fun and fantastic. I love it. and Im really glad that my mommy will be here to share it with me. 🙂